Capture Your Grief ~ Day 5

Capture Your Grief 2016

for Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month

Day 5: The Unspoken

October 5, 2016 ♥

Day 5. The Unspoken: Normalizing grief is so important and that is why today I am calling upon those who feel brave enough to speak about the nitty gritty side of grief. Share something about your grief journey that you might feel is strange or not common. It might be something you do to remember your children by or maybe it is something you fear about the future. Often while grieving we have feelings of isolation because we fear judgement that what we are feeling isn't normal. But it is amazing to see just how many people feel the same way. When others stand up and express how they feel through sharing their experiences, it allows us to say "Hey, I feel that way too!" and the fear of feeling like we are crazy is lifted and in some cases embraced!

For today's prompt, we are asked to share something about the "nitty gritty side of grief," the things not often spoken about or that are misunderstood.

Honestly, there are many things that have become complicated in my life since losing Lily. Things that prick my heart, things that others simply wouldn't understand unless they've been through the same thing. Even then, everyone is so unique and each person's life and circumstances are unique to them, such as personality, whether or not they have other living children, etc.

These complicated things can leave me feeling isolated and misunderstood. These things I am meant to cast on my Jesus (1 Peter 5:7). Things that only He can carry for me. Things that only He can give me the grace and strength to navigate and endure.

Learning to "grieve with those who grieve and rejoice with those who rejoice" (Romans 12:15). Learning that one doesn't have to overshadow the other. Learning that life is not about me and what I want. Learning to surrender.

Trusting that He is sovereign and in control of every detail of my life. Trusting that He hasn't forgotten me, that He sees and understands my unique situation, my fears, my pain, everything.

Trusting that "God keeps no one waiting unless He sees that it is good for him to wait." -C.S. Lewis

Trusting that all of this is purposeful and a reminder that this world is not my Home. Trusting that He is Author of my future, Redeemer of my past, Lord of my present, and Master over all. May He be glorified in my life, in my death, and in everything that touches my world.

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