Capture Your Grief-Day 29

CAPTURE YOUR GRIEF 2012 Photography Project 

for October-Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month

Day 29: Music

October 29, 2012 ♥

Day 29. Music: This might be hard to capture in a photograph so break the rules (that we don’t have, hah!) and post a youtube clip of a piece of music that reminds your of your baby/ies/child/ren.

Personally, I wanted a photo for today to add to the photo book I am making with all my pictures from this project.

There are lots of songs that remind me of Lily. I have a "Lily Playlist" that I listen to when I'm especially missing her. I treasure all those songs, but some are more special than others.

The songs that mean the most to me are:

The "Jewel-Lullaby" CD, which reminds me of my pregnancy. I got it to play for Lily when she was born, but listened to it all the time while pregnant. I would turn it up so loudly and sing aloud and would feel Lily moving around wildly. It was one of the sounds she knew and loved during her life. My favorite song on the album is called Forever and a Day. It is mine and Lily's song and I will go on loving her forever and a day...

Another song that reminds me of my pregnancy is Little One by Rebecca St. James. I first heard it during the ending credits of the movie "Sarah's Choice." I related to it so much because I too was in an unplanned pregnancy and almost had an abortion. Yet, couldn't imagine ever living without my girl. When I listen to it now, it is so bittersweet.

My absolute favorite song is I Will Carry You by Selah. I am so thankful that I heard this song on another blog months before losing Lily and it had such a deep impact on me. I remembered it when I said goodbye to Lily and am so extremely happy and thankful that I played it at her Celebration of LIFE Service! Oh, I cannot listen to it without crying. In the first few months after losing Lily, I would want to just get out of the house to be alone and would turn it up so loudly and bawl my eyes out. Another favorite is the piano instrumental called Childhood Memories, which was also played at Lily's service. You can listen to both of these songs on the video tribute I made in honor of Lily.

The other song we played at Lily's service is Your Hands by JJ Heller. It was the final song we played before everyone left. It is such a beautiful, bittersweet song for me to hear. I wanted everyone to leave that day feeling hope, knowing that we were resting in the hands of the One who holds the world in His hands, no matter what happens to us in this life.

The "Beauty Will Rise" album by Steven Curtis Chapman reminds me of my loss, my grief, and my healing. My Aunt Helen gave it to me two months after losing Lily for Mother's Day 2010. It was the album that flowed out of the loss of Mr. Chapman's own little girl, so I relate to each song deeply. The song that has impacted me the most is Beauty Will Rise. It's such a glorious truth that everything I have been through and all the wrong choices I have made, God will work it all together for my good and His glory! 

These are the other songs on my "Lily Playlist:"

• Olivianna - JJ Heller
• Glory Baby - Watermark
• Hello, Goodbye - Michael W. Smith
• Gone Too Soon - Daughtry
• Still - Gerrit Hofsink
• If I Die Young - The Band Perry
• Precious Child - Karen Taylor-Good 
• Who You'd Be Today - Kenny Chesney
• Jealous of the Angels - Jenn Bostic
• Smallest Wingless - Craig Cardiff
• Daughter of Heaven - Kate Rusby
• One More Day - Rocket Club
• Awake - Josh Groban
• Now I Sleep Album- John Albert Thomas
• Fly - Celine Dion
• Home - Nicol Sponberg
• Held - Natalie Grant
• Godspeed - the Dixie Chicks
• Capri - Colbie Caillat
• Hug Him Once for Me - Erica McClure
• In The Mourning Album - David Teems
• The Lord Is My Shepherd (23rd Psalm) - Keith Green
• With Hope - Steven Curtis Chapman
• Praise You In This Storm - Casting Crowns
• Beauty From Pain - Superchick
• Before the Morning - Josh Wilson
• Bring the Rain - MercyMe
• Tattoo - Jordin Sparks
• Broken Hallelujah - Mandisa
• Goodbye For Now - Kathy Troccoli
• Homesick - MercyMe
• How to Say Goodbye - Michael W. Smith
• Wintersong - Sarah McLachlan
• Arms of An Angel - Sarah McLachlan
• Missin' You - Chris Rice
• There Will Be a Day - Jeremy Camp
• Slipped Away - Avril Lavigne
• To Where You Are - Josh Groban
• Blessings - Laura Story

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