Capture Your Grief-Day 23

CAPTURE YOUR GRIEF 2012 Photography Project 

for October-Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month

Day 23: Her Name/Photo

October 23, 2012 ♥

Day 23. Their Name/Their Photo: If you feel comfortable, share a photo of your baby/ies/child/ren who you are remembering this month. If you do not have photos, you could use an ultrasound image or something that represents them.

This is a photo of my beautiful daughter, Lily Katherine. She was born into Heaven on March 16, 2010. I don't have high quality photos like those who had the gift of NILMDTS, but am so thankful for the pictures I do have. This is my absolute favorite photo of my girl because it shows her unique and precious features. She was truly a beautiful baby and was so feminine even at birth.

Lily looked just like her mommy. :) She was lovely. Perfect. Every detail of her just right. She was the most beautiful baby I have ever seen. Her little nose was the first thing I noticed about her, so tiny and adorable. It looked like a miniature version of mine. I memorized every part of her. Every part of her, forever engraved in my mind. Wow, God made this perfect little person in only nine months! He chose me to carry her...I didn't deserve that. She had stubby little eyelashes like mine, almost nonexistent eyebrows, chubby cheeks and the same chin as mine, and the cutest heart-shaped lips. Mom said her lips were even like mine. Everyone said she looked like me. To this, I jokingly said, "poor thing." It was true though. Looking back at pictures of me as a newborn, I looked just like her. Her legs were even the same shape as mine. She had the same thumbs as me too. Her tiny fingers and toes were so cute. I couldn't stop staring at her. I had always imagined her bald like I was as a baby, but she had beautiful hair (the exact same shade as mine!), though not very much of it.

I wish I knew how she'd look now. I barely know what to imagine. Imagine...I must imagine what my own child would look like. Would she be a tiny peanut, or a chubby thing? Would she be spunky and adventurous or calm and subdued? How different might my world look today if she were here? So many things I will never know. I cling to the memories of her...the most precious memories I will ever have. Until one sweet day...one sweet day. I won't get to post picture updates throughout the years, but only the same few images over and over every year. 

These are the other two favorite photos I have of my sweet princess. In the top one you can tell that she looked JUST like me! :)

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